Again I have slipped into a lapse of activity. I suppose this is actually quite good in some respects. I have spent nearly 8 months recovering from serious surgery, but latterly I am more active and able so I have had lots to do-catching up on what I missed for 7 months! I have been reactive mainly, but I am getting proactive too. I do however find I get tired a lot and quickly. I am trying to address this, building stamina and muscles-again-by going to the Gym and swimming. But what has annoyed me is how jobs and tasks, chores and simple actions do seem to be more difficult than ever. OK I live with an ageing mother, in a house where she and Dad clearly sat back and paid little attention to things for many years, but so much needs attention! So many things seem to be stashed somewhere and at the back of cupboards and need repairing, or simply do not work at all! Then there are surpluses of things that will never be used or needed. Why is so much stored? Why was it ever purchased? Why is there so much storage space filled with so many unused and useless things? Its not as if they are for show-they do not get shown! We do not have rooms and cupboards, we have dumping zones!
Dad deteriorated over several years, before he went into a Hospice/Care Home and died nearly 3 years ago, so Mum had her time committed to Dad-probably for 10 years or more, and she gets tired, but its amazing what can be accumulated or neglected in 10 or so years. I tried to move sliding doors:big windows or French doors may be a better description, but the locks were so set that I had to use my tool box and lots of WD40-and break the bits that secured the lock to open and slide the door. One door is still set! And why was I trying to move them-to get loads of fresh air, because I had washed the carpets. The cat seems to have become incontinent! So I wanted to clean up after his mess-and smell! Its like a new carpet now-but it was really hard work-and I am shattered.
I tire too often, it does worry me. I want to go to a job, but will I cope with it?
Dad deteriorated over several years, before he went into a Hospice/Care Home and died nearly 3 years ago, so Mum had her time committed to Dad-probably for 10 years or more, and she gets tired, but its amazing what can be accumulated or neglected in 10 or so years. I tried to move sliding doors:big windows or French doors may be a better description, but the locks were so set that I had to use my tool box and lots of WD40-and break the bits that secured the lock to open and slide the door. One door is still set! And why was I trying to move them-to get loads of fresh air, because I had washed the carpets. The cat seems to have become incontinent! So I wanted to clean up after his mess-and smell! Its like a new carpet now-but it was really hard work-and I am shattered.
I tire too often, it does worry me. I want to go to a job, but will I cope with it?
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